Im sitting here after another long day of working my buns off on 5 different globbs of life on my plate. When I first sat down I was ready to cry my eyeballs out then eat my entire collection of frozen foods BUT then a sudden miraculous calm came over me, as it usually does. Then my mind switches gears from anger, confusion, hopelessness and anxiety TO the people who love me, the people who believe in me and the way those people have been, and continue to be patient with me. I feel like I have found a beautiful balance between my family/friends and my career. The family part has settled nicely and I am so so happy in that area, I truly cant believe how blessed I am. BUT on my career side I work and work and work and every little tiny thing that could go wrong does. I am just hoping that all these set backs are just a cool addition to my tale and will make success taste as sweet as it can. Mainly my biggest worry/anxiety is that Im always telling everyone that im almost there and then I hit another bump and sound like a fibber. I may be a lot of things but one thing I can honestly say Im not is a liar. Nope, no way. So when It seems like Im full of shit and never making any progress to people I frown. HUGE. BUT I know Im not a fibbmaster. I work had every single day and still have beautiful, badass people waiting and cheering me on. SO FOR THAT I THANK YOU. Anyone taking the time to read this, waiting for my music and just being there. It keeps me going and means more than I could ever say. I will never give up and one day I KNOW it will pay off…… and hopefully be a little rewarding for you too. Thanks forever. and ever. Time to eat 1 freezer treat :)
Body Gat..... serioulsy I feel like a peaceful machine gun.
When my mom first started doing Bikram Yoga a few years ago she pretty much drove me nuts talking about it. Lets face it she drove everyone nuts…..and now so do I :) I took my first class over 2 years ago and I can honestly say no form of exercise has ever given me even a pinch of what Bikram has physically, mentally and spiritually. I challenge you to find out where the nearest class is near you and take ONE CLASS. Try one time, it might kick your ass and be pretty hardcore at first but I can PROMISE you that you wont regret it and you will feel incredibly good afterward (even if you just lay there half the class) Let me know how it goes for you!!!
When I was a kid I listened to lots and lots of music but the ones that I became obsessed with and warped me into my self are….. Mariah Carey, No Doubt, Lauren HIll/The Fugees both at once, The Beastie Boys, Bjork, The Used, Eisley, Adele, and more recently Little Dragon.
I was of course influenced by hundreds of others but those are some of the biggest. Rapping, Screaming and singing is just really enjoyable for me. I also like trying to imitate cartoon voices or any voice really! Oh the magical mystical vocal chords.